I knew

We were together for two years and they were genuinely the best two years of my life. Lockdown hit and despite being a bit nervous I was so happy at how well we dealt with it together, despite being so far apart. When restrictions eased he came to stay and we had the best week of our lives. I remember feeling so smug and happy that we had survived lockdown. 
And then a week later, he comes back up and before he even said anything I knew. ‘You’re going to break up with me aren’t you?’  
And that was it. ‘You’ve done nothing wrong, I’m not going to cut you out of my life.’ 
What a lie that was. It would have been better if he didn’t say it at all. 
It’s been hard. I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep. It knocks your confidence so much when you put 100% into something and it’s still not enough for someone. But for the first time in forever I’ve put myself first, and now I’m flourishing. He’s disappointed me more than I ever thought possible, but at the end of the day I feel a bit sorry for him, that he feels he can treat people like that. I think it’s more of a reflection of him than me.