Maybe, maybe not

When lockdown hit I knew we needed to take a break. We had been through a lot and I knew we wouldn't survive if we were together in our tiny 1 bedroom apartment with nothing but our issues to face. So I left and you never forgave me.

I never said I wasn't coming back. I wanted us to use this time to focus on ourselves and the relationship. Instead you ended up hating me. 

I’ve tried to work on the relationship. I’ve tried to explain why we needed space. Now the world is opening up again and we are no further forward like I thought we would be. You have allowed your feelings for me to be taken over by bitterness. 

I’ve given everything I can, I’ve tried and tried and you wont let your guard down and forgive me. I’m getting tired fighting for this alone. You tell me you may come back and may forgive me one day but the hope and not knowing is unbearable. 

I hope in a year I look back at this crazy year from a better place, maybe with you or maybe not. But I just hope I’m happy.