My Anam Cara

My lockdown love story almost feels too shocking to share. I’m not entirely convinced it was actually me playing the part of the person who fell in love with you. 20 years after we first met, we finally shared our mutual love. I allowed myself to fall in love with you. I found you fascinating and irresistible. There was no denying that you are my twin flame, my Anam Cara. But we were both married and you couldn’t do what you had persuaded me to do. I was ready to change my entire world for you.

I wake up grieving you most days. The loss is too big to comprehend. You must not think that we will be together one day. We had our chance at that “One Day” and our days on the sunshine are behind us now.

Why wasn’t I enough? What more could I have been?

I will love you until my dying day.