Same story

I have lost count of “the almost relationships” I have had. I did not sleep with any of them but that’s all what they wanted in the end. Exhausted. Take a break and start again I hear you say? Have done that each time.

How do you explain to family, friends, doctors who keep reminding me to “get on with kids”? Why do they think I am not trying hard enough to find “the one”? Why more pressure as if I don’t put that already on myself? This time I thought maybe I have met “the one” but slowly realising that he might be married to his work. It’s been again another year of getting to know someone and another year of disappointment.

Thank you for hearing me out on this page, when my own are probably tired of lending me their ear on the “same story again.” I feel too ashamed to pick up the phone to talk. It’s as if something is wrong with me because they are all married with their 1.5 kids.