Weighty words

I have spent the last 3 lockdowns focusing on self love and accepting my body for how it is - before lockdown I was training everyday and was in a very toxic place health wise. I promised myself I would no longer shame myself cause of how I looked. Last week I slept with a guy for the first time since June 2020 and when we finished he poked my stomach and said “Quarantine Belly”. I hate the fact that now I’ve given him the power to make me not want to eat, to want to to workout everyday, to weigh myself every morning. I guess the truth is he’ll never know that every time I’m naked his words scream in my head.