At the start of lockdown I was okay

At the start of lockdown I was okay, naive, busy.
As lockdown progressed further I realised it might be a while until I saw my partner again, but that was okay, how long could this go on for. It will be okay. 
Weeks became months, and I became bitter for all those together with their loved ones, while I remained torn apart from my love. 
My heart hurts for the time we have lost and will never get back. 
Perhaps it is easier to be angry, bitter and jealous than desperately heart broken and hurting.