Do I keep waiting for him?

Do I keep waiting for him? I’m in love with a guy that I’ve been talking to on off for 4 years now. I’ve believed for most of that time, especially in the last 2 years that we were moving towards something more serious. But he’s recently said he is still not ready for anything serious, hates talking about it and says it’ll be 6 months before he’ll know what he wants from life, me etc. So obviously I don’t want to pressure him as it’s understandable to be uncertain, especially in these times. But I can’t help it, I just want to be his everything, I want to do normal relationship things, have dinner, stay over, go on days out but at the moment we basically message and sext. He says he likes me a lot and could want something with me in the future but doesn’t want to talk about it because it stresses him out. I haven’t seen him for 8 months because he won’t tell his family for religious reasons and is always busy. And more recently I said no to meeting up just for sex because I’m serious about wanting more. I still don’t know if that was the right decision. Recently I got tinder because he wants me to make him jealous but now I’m at odds. Do I actually move on or do I wait for what could be something great if it works. I really want it to be him but I don’t know when or if he will be ready. It’ll break me if it doesn’t work out.

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