I broke up with my boyfriend in lockdown…

I broke up with my boyfriend in lockdown. It was a long time coming and we had been on a break in the weeks prior. I had been running from him subconsciously for years and looking for big and dramatic reasons to end things. Reasons like new opportunities in other countries, rent being too high in the city I was living in. Reasons that weren’t simply...I’m not interested any more and I don’t know that I ever was to the extent you’re supposed to be. I knew he couldn’t handle that and that he would take it personally – he would try to pinpoint it to a single thing he did or a flaw he thought he had. So lockdown and my subsequent change of city to my home city came in the middle of a break and I called it. I ended it. I’m ridiculously happy with this decision. I always was happier single and I feel like myself again. He wasn’t a controlling guy it’s just I guess I’m not at a place yet where I can feel like myself while being ‘in a relationship’. I need total commitment to myself for that apparently.