I fell in love with my best friend

I fell head over heels in love with my best friend, it was all very complicated at first but we made it through together as strong as ever. We had the most perfect relationship and couldn’t be more in love with each other if we tried. I trusted her like I’d never trusted anyone else before. 

Lockdown happened and she got really unwell with Covid, I was there for her every day dropping stuff round and doing as much as I could but she was alone in her flat and it obviously effected her more than I realised. One day we discussed our future and both decided we wanted different things. It was only till after we broke up I realised she was my future and I’d do anything to keep her.

I told her she was everything to me and I’d do anything to keep her and she text me back saying it was too late she was homesick and wanting to move back home to Ireland. It was too late. It’s been over 6 months since we broke up and I’m still madly in love with her. I’d never experience heartbreak, pain or anxiety quite like what I did when we broke up and still I love her so much and just want her back.