Locked in day dreaming

An all consuming feeling
Hours spent reading and re reading 
Taking comfort in what has been said before 
Heart wrenching longing  
Willing myself to dream of you
The only place we can be together 
A yearning pain
It’s not enough 
It’s nowhere near enough 
The brief joy in imagining what could be
What we can be 
The joy we find in each other 
Someone I can confide in 
Share my fears with 
Seek comfort from 
Give comfort to 
I want you 
Time spent examining your face
Committing you to memory 
Soaring highs and crushing lows
Running to be with you
Wanting to touch you 
Replaying the moment our legs met 
The moments our hands touched 
The feeling of your hand stroking mine
Songs reminding me of you
Playing over and over 
Constant distraction 
Welcome distraction
Heartbreaking distraction
Imagining myself through your eyes 
Feelings of betrayal 
Torn into two 
All encompassing 
Losing myself?
First to run 
Someday