Redefining things

I had a loving boyfriend. After 3 years of our relationship, I understood that our plans for the future were different. Then, the epiphany: I didn't even like him anymore. I loved him as a friend, that was all.

I waited because I didn't want to be influenced by the trauma my family was going through due to covid. He had his problems too. I told him that I couldn't see a bright future for us. I wanted to resist until the end of the pandemic, but I felt trapped.

Then another guy came into my life. I met him through a language exchange app. He wanted to learn my native language, I wanted to learn his. He lives in the same country where I live, but in a different region. Messages turned into calls and calls into videocalls. We liked each other.

I broke up with my boyfriend. I don't feel trapped anymore, I love my new boyfriend with all myself and freely, despite restrictions and difficulties. We have (kinda) sex, we have mute videocalls not to bother our roommates and relatives at night, we experiment everything. We haven't met in person yet. Neither of us has ever experienced anything like this before. "We are redefining things" he often tells me.