Self worth

I spent part of lockdown with my on off boyfriend of 3 years. I genuinely thought he was the “one” - this was it. 
We were flat hunting, talking about the future, planning our lives together. 

During lockdown, I was an anxious mess, worried about job security and vulnerable family members. Because of this, I needed more reassurance than “normal”. He completely disconnected from me, said I was too much, and too insecure. 

He decided he didn’t want to do this anymore. Said he wanted a baby in the next year or so, and said he wouldn’t wait for me. He resented me as my insecurities were becoming his problem. 

Even though it hurts like nothing I have ever experienced before, I cry a lot, and my future looks completely different. I am grateful that I see my self worth now, I am worth someone loving me and my insecurities. Those insecurities don’t define me. 

We’re all only human. 
We’re all struggling through life, one day at a time.