Single and celibate no more

Coming up to two years single & celibate, I decided before Christmas that I couldn't let the pandemic get in the way anymore and threw myself back in to the dating apps.

Within a few weeks I'd matched with a lovely guy, and was genuinely excited that it would have potential. We met up for a socially-distanced walk which was all going well until it was cut short by Boris announcing tier 4 for London and we both rushed off to head back to our families for the holidays.

Two long weeks of constant conversation followed cementing what we had in common. On NYE it escalated to some intense sexting, and I headed back to London full of anticipation to finally meet again.

The sex did not disappoint, he was refreshingly aware of my needs and we seemed in sync. We spent the whole weekend together in bed and I left feeling even more confident that this could really go somewhere.

One month later and it already feels like we have just settled in to a routine. I'm not sure if it's because lockdown has removed the option for us to properly date, or because we both know we don't want serious relationships right now. We're in limbo.

We speak everyday but it's a basic exchange of 'how was your day' and 'what are you up to'. He's super nice and polite, but maybe to a fault that doesn't sustain my interest. The sex is still good, but I'm finding it's getting a little repetitive and staying safe & vanilla. There also isn't enough sex or sexting for it work as friends with benefits for me, but equally there isn't enough of a feeling or connection between us for it to be more. 

So whilst we are in purgatory I've headed back to the dating apps in pursuit of some proper excitement. This week I had 2 hours of hot phone sex with a guy who has a cuckolding fantasy and wanted to hear all about the last time I slept with the other guy. Who knows what this week will bring.