Stuck

Lockdown 2.0 is here and I promised myself no more boys in lockdown and here I am with you -a dream man I want to say everything I’ve ever wanted in a guy kind, caring, makes me feel special and safe always eager to see me but for some reason I’m not catching feelings and feel annoyed at myself for not. I’m stuck between dreaming of what life would of been like with my old entanglement and thinking he will return to me but also feeling so content within myself I don’t want to let you in to ruin this even though I know you won’t? Or maybe I just like the feelings of having someone there? I’m stuck and don’t know what to do.....