I want to get high with you

I find us confusing. I know you’re not someone I want to be in a romantic, long term monogamous relationship with - but I’m very drawn to you. Perhaps as a friend. This is what you want: to be friends. But I want to be really intimate and vulnerable with you. I want to divulge myself. I want to get high with you. I want to make you come, and you me. I crave your company. And I just don’t know how you move forwards with that?