4am

Woke up at 4:00am this morning (again) thinking about you. Do you think about me too? Do you regret all those horrible things you said to me? Did you ever care? Will you apologise for the way you treated me?

Then I cried myself to sleep thinking it’s Friday night and you are probably deep inside another woman and here I am disturbing my peace and sleep over you.

…I was right. I saw you walk her to the station this evening. Perils of living in the same area.

This should make me stop thinking about you and have a full night sleep tonight after 4 weeks. My self esteem should be bigger than my feelings for you. I really do hope I will not betray myself.