Pop

We met on hinge and instantly hit it off, it just felt right. I admired his confidence. 

The messages were constant and I couldn't wait to meet him. I totally felt like I was punching above my weight but for the first time in a long time, he made me feel believe, that something good could come of these things. I tried not to get my hopes up too much but it was hard not too with how great he seemed. 

We met and it was everything I needed. Great conversation, no awkwardness, insanely good sex and having intimacy after months of nothing, truly felt so good again. He made me feel wanted. 

We met for three weeks in a row and I was so happy. Then it all changed. You became a different person overnight, the messages weren't as frequent and you seemed off with me and I couldn't get a straight answer out of him. 

I assumed it was because he was seeing someone else or that I had done something wrong. A few days later, he told me he couldn't commit to me because of work, family, life issues and it wouldn't be fair on me for him not to commit to me when he was like this. 

And that is it, the end of a whirlwind month of talking. 

I am still gutted and longing to see his name pop up on my phone again. I hope there wasn't someone else or that I did something to change his mind. My mind won't settle overthinking it all.

After being single for 6 years, I'm used to the rejection. Yet it feels like such a shame to end things with such an abrupt, unanswered ending. 

I hope he's okay and that I wasn't just a time passer for him.