Helpless

It’s been a year of loving you, a year of us being a team together, and a year of experiencing what a relationship and love should be.

But your anxiety is heightening. I feel you slipping into depression. I can’t help feeling helpless. Is it me? No (you say this and I hope it’s true). But it’s probably your work, your past losses, your heartbreaks and broken promises, and the way others have treated you throughout life.

I can’t change these but oh how I wish I could. You’ve loved me for a year, possibly even 2 if I can let myself believe the strength of your feelings after we tried dating the first time. But I feel like I’m losing you into something I can’t control, and that scares me more than anything.