Nothing’s changed

I first met you many years ago. I felt the spark instantly bad news I was newly married and you were my husband’s friend. We flirted on and off for years, nothing more until one night. We went for a drive and had a few kisses. It felt so right but we both couldn’t believe the timing and the situation. Of course that night I got caught out by my husband. I wanted to come out in the open and own my feelings for you. You were only interested in making sure he didn’t know it was you. We’ve continued to flirt while your marriage and children came along. Fast forward to before lockdown I meet you out, you are recently separated, you tell me nothings changed. Sucking me in again I offer you a fling you refuse (thank god) I see you get a new girlfriend but yet you still watch me message me flirt with me!! This is torture. Why can’t you own it for what it is and give me one night for closure!