A full 180

At the beginning of lockdown I broke up with my boyfriend - we were together for almost 5 years. Most people were craving a sense of normality and rushed to move in with their significant others, but I turned a full 180.

I sat in my room alone night after night - zoom calls, house party app, endless scrabble games. I found myself talking to people who I hadn’t spoken with in years. It felt like the anxiety we have as people in embracing our vulnerability - and communicating it - had melted away. The pandemic had united people all over the globe, albeit through fear. 

This got me thinking, I made a Hinge profile and set my location to New York. If I couldn't travel there, then New York could come to me. 7 billion people in the world were stuck in lockdown, yet connected so easily through the internet. 

I had a few matches, even a zoom date where we both got ridiculously tequila drunk until 3am. Then one day I stumbled across someone who made me forget about my ex.

He was funny, he was caring, he was hard working, he was handsome. He told me daily how beautiful I was, we spoke every single day. He walked to Times Square just to FaceTime me the view for a virtual date. He told me his secrets, he told me about his kid from his previous relationship. He told me he had never felt this way about anyone before. I was going to go see him the moment this was over - he told me about all the places and things he wanted to show me.

Then one day, out of the blue, he told me he just wanted to be friends and blocked me. It’s been almost two months now and I still think about him. 

After some investigating I found that he was recently divorced but never told me.....I fell for all those empty promises and lies.