Backing myself

I’ve been single for a year and a half and I’m finally feeling okay about it. 6years with one and 6 intense months with another and then nothing but casual hook ups and ‘maybe’s’. 
I think I’m finally understanding that being alone is better than being with the wrong one! It’s finally hitting me! I used to have to dim my light for someone who had a fragile ego. Be funny enough to entertain his friends but not funnier than him. Be pretty but not attract other guy’s attention. Be clever to charm a family dinner party but not more intelligent than him. 
I hope he finds a nice girl who is nice enough to enchant but not steal his limelight. Good luck to them. That’ll be...nice. 
I want more than ‘nice’ though! 
I’ve spent 6 years believing that I had to be less for someone else and meeting new people and shining my light is tricky but also necessary. I’m excited and terrified to be myself and find someone worthy of me. I have a huge crush on someone and have done for a year now...I messaged him today so we’ll see but even if it’s a no at least I’m backing myself a bit finally. Wish me luck!