Guilty Pleasure

I've been dating the same guy for just over a year now. Our 'relationship' has been a rollercoaster and work/his child/his mum's terminal illness has been difficult to date around at the best of times. 

Lockdown has made it hard. His mum's health has deteriorated and he's not been allowed to see his kid. I've been working a lot and being told we can't see each other by the government has been tough. 

But we broke, and couldn't keep away. 4 weeks ago we saw each other. He felt guilty and I felt guilty because he did. But it satisfied our want for each other and we got over it. 

Then we saw each other again two weeks ago and this time we enjoyed it, so much, with no guilt. On the hottest day of the year so far.

Lockdown has made us realise that we can survive the work/child/family illness battle together, now more than ever - when we thought it would actually end us! 

We don't feel bad for this now, because it's human nature to need someone you love to be in your life physically. No one got ill from us doing this, and the fear has gone.