I got my answer

I got my answer 6 months to the day you sent that text that changed my whole view of you.

When we first met, I'll admit you came across as blunt and prickly. But you slowly showed a softer, kinder side. I liked the interest you showed in me and it was a pleasant surprise every time we talked.
I was convinced I wasn't falling for you but it slowly became apparent to me that I was. I buried my feelings as to not jeopardise our friendship. I have never been able to tell where I stood with you. You've always been hot and cold with me and it was part of your allure. I couldn't pin you down.

After all, some days we had laughs, and good times but on others we were distant. We never did get the timing right did we?

Lockdown put even more distance between us and I've not seen you in what feels like an eternity. But finally, I got my answer and I have to say I expected as much. I had prepared for such an outcome a thousand times in my head but nevertheless; something inside of me died. Perhaps the signs were always there but I chose to ignore them. I feel numb right now typing this and it will take some time to bury my feelings once again.

I'm truly glad though, that for the first time in years, I chose to open up and be vulnerable and I do not regret the short time that you have spent in my life.

I'm a better person for knowing you and I will never forget that radiant smile of yours.

You'll always be the sunshine in my cloudy life.