Heat of the moment

I was seeing a guy a month or two pre lockdown, it was very casual, we even labelled ourselves as friends with benefits. There were possible feelings there but we weren’t putting pressure on it. Lockdown hits and we decide to self isolate together, after all we’re friends and thought it would be a good idea at the time. We had the most amazing three weeks together, as you can imagine it was intense and feelings were formed. We realised how well we worked as a team and spoke about the future. At the end of the third week, we had our first disagreement, I’d had a couple of drinks and I made a crappy decision. I told him to leave. I then had to spend the next 4 months of lockdown regretting my decision and wondering what could of been. We ended up drifting apart and I will always wonder what if.