Feeling feelings

During lockdown, I came to realize how much you mean to me. How much fun we have with just the basics. We are both trying to build for our future so I could imagine how having more than we do now would enhance our good times even more...
You are always down to do anything I can think of and I like that about you. I didn’t want to be bothered by anyone before meeting you and I thought I still didn’t after meeting you. 
I told you we would only stay friends because I thought I wasn’t looking. 
Things took place, time passed, lockdown made me see how much I enjoy your company, how much I love hearing your voice and how much you make me laugh. 
I like you and you know it but you don’t feel the same way – it’s unfortunate but I get it. No I lied... it doesn’t make sense to me and I don’t get it. 
I guess that’s why I keep thinking you will develop the same feelings but you still haven’t yet. 
I need to change and hopefully it will all go away.