After the break up

I started lockdown with my boyfriend, best friend, and soul mate of 2 and a half years. Towards the end I ended things to allow us both to grow as individuals and to put ourselves first in our life’s. Later I realised I let go of the best thing that ever happened to me, and it’s now too late to get him back. 

I regret what I did but he knows that and believes we should focus on ourselves.

I’m trying to focus on me, and not think of others, like him, but it’s a stuggle, but no matter how hard it is, it just has to be done.

I just hope he realises my mistake and takes me back, but we shall see what this chapter has in store.

Despite the pain, heartache and tears, I’m trying to hold on to the fact that you should never be afraid to put yourself first.