Stressed, lonely, depressed

So lockdown 3 has come, I'm as stressed, lonely and depressed as ever during this pandemic. When this whole mess started, I was so in love with my gf... well... ex gf now. I'm still so in love with her, even 3 months after she broke up with me.
But that chapter has come to a close, blocking and unlocking shenanigans, stalking on social media and what ifs coming to an end. I still cry myself to sleep sometimes because she doesn't see a future with me, but I'm truly starting to move on. Maybe we will be friends in the future 🤷‍♀️ but right now I need some space.
My friends and family have been the best, checking up on me and making sure I eat (when I'm anxious/heart broken I'm too nauseous to even smell food) after what happened 2 years ago. I've really seen who is here for me and who was fake, safe to say I cut them off. Finding new friends has been amazing too. I can't remember the last time I would laugh so much or say "i love you" to so many people. 
I've rediscovered so many of my passions, photography, writing (although this one is on hold because I write romance 😂), singing, dancing, reading, fashion and many more to come 😂
I've changed so much since the 5th of October and I'm learning to love myself so much more than I have in the past! 
P.s. even bought my first sex toy for some more self love 😋